I’ve kept a journal—pen on bound paper pages. I did it regularly for a while, then intermittently, and not at all for a long time now. Blogging has some similarities, but it’s a different world. If I were doing a journal on paper, today I would write about my commitment to lose some weight. I’d mention that 217 pounds is a reflection of lack of self control—that I allow the pleasure of eating to control me. I’d describe how this is not good for my physical health and that it shows mental/emotional weakness. In a private journal I would write that the first 10 pounds will go by curtailing sweets and snacks and I’d record my awareness that the next 15 pounds will take more time and more resolve than the first 10. But in a public venue like blogging, I’d rather not talk about my weight. If I’m not successful, I’d prefer other people didn’t know I tried and failed.
posted by Dan McCracken at 7:30 AM
2 Comments:
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Dan, this is very funny! If I were writing in a private journal, I'd say that my attempts to exercise everyday this week come because I'm too weak to admit food has some control over me, and I'm trying to lose weight other ways.
If I was writing in a private journal I would admit that my return to the gym this week has a bit to do with the fact that I am still trying to make peace with that woman in the mirror, and that I like her better when she is strong. (see - I have to change her to like her - how wacked is that?) But it has a lot more to do with the fact that I am shopping for a 600 lb motorcycle and I do not want to suffer the humiliation of dropping it in the dealers parking lot.
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